I couldn't sleep. It's still pretty early in the morning and nobody else in my family has awaken yet. I've probably woke up about 5 times last night, in approximately hourly intervals. (As much as I love summer and the heat that comes with it, sleeping in a hot room isn't something I'd like to go through.) And although I don't really like being awake so early (I'd much rather sleep in), it's only around this time where the outside of your window is so beautiful. The birds would do their morning bird calls. The plants would be struggling for sunlight. And pretty much, the world is waking up.
But I'm getting way ahead of myself.
About 20 minutes earlier, I checked my temperature. I got 100.4. Except, I don't feel as sick as yesterday where I was about 98 to 99. Yesterday morning, I woke up with a sore throat which eventually went away. But by the time I was done cooking and eating lunch, I started feeling very woozy. My head felt dizzy and it gave me a headache. My limbs shook; they were so weak that it would take me a couple of moments just to open a drawer or walk up/down the stairs. In general, I felt horrible yesterday, horribly ill. Today however, I'm much better off yet how the day will go through I will not know.
Chemistry is alright. I don't mind the class since the teacher is both clear and the lectures go by so fast. But I most definitely loathe doing labs. It's not my lab partner or the labs that we do, it's that I am extremely bad at doing labs. I can't really explain, but trust me, I'm not that great.
We took a test just last Thursday. Overall it was easy (especially when Dr.Dang reviewed almost everything beforehand.) I'm most positive that I got at least one question incorrect, but I hope it doesn't add up.
Oh! That reminds me: I met a friend in Chemistry class not too long ago. His name is Michael Wu/Woo (sp?). He goes to Hercules and also plays clarinet. I thought he looked familiar and I was right. He went to the senior recital to see Ruth. But I'm glad I have someone to hang out with. It gets awkward when you have to eat lunch alone.
Well, now that we've reached this far into the blog, I'm judging you intend to read this through. It's about time I brought up the highlight of my summer this year. At first I wasn't sure if I should even speak about it, but my mother said it was okay. See, on June 23/24 my grandfather passed away. His death stung our whole family and as of now, I still don't like to think about it.
But why am I telling you guys? So you can offer your sympathy? So I can finally let it out? Perhaps. But the main reason I'm telling you guys is so that you can practically drop any events you might think about inviting me to. As a way of respect, I have to follow some old traditions that my Chinese ancestors also had to follow. They include the following: -I cannot go to another person's (besides my own family member's) house. -I cannot also invite others over. -In general I'm not suppose to "have fun" (such as going to the movie theaters) but little things may be okay. -I cannot eat meat for a whole month. (This can explain my fatigue yesterday.) -I cannot wear anything with real animal fur (not that I do anyway.) -I cannot wear red.
That's pretty much it. I definitely do not mind doing this since he is my grandfather, but I do have to withdraw from several events that may come up. For one, I cannot go to birthday parties. I hope you guys are having a wonderful summer. :)
We had a quiz in Chemistry today, relatively simple. But if only I read the email a day before which reads:
Hi, For tomorrow's quiz - here is a chance to earn 1 extra credit point.
On the upper right hand corner of the back page of the quiz, write "snoopy". Please don't ask any questions about the extra credit during class or during the quiz....remember it's extra credit. :)
See you tomorrow. Dr. D
AURGH!!! I could've gotten that one point. But no, instead of reading this yesterday, I read it...10 minutes ago. Epic fail. Oh dang. D: (No pun intended.)
Interesting Fact of the Day: I hate the smell of your fingers after eating cheesy snacks, like potato chips. >_<;; *shudder*
This is my third blog title change. (Oh, when will this madness end?) Forgive me. I am terribly indecisive and when I feel a need for change, a change will definitely follow.
The title of my new blog is: A PRETTY DORMANT LIFE. [The definition of dormant is as follows: (n.) a state of rest or inactivity; inoperative; in abeyance]
Ever since I've entered high school, I have entered many states of reflection. Some of the things I reflect on may as well be in different galaxies, but one of the things I think about often, is how tied-down my life feels.
Don't get me wrong. I have many freedoms and privileges. But with so much of my life currently centered on work, it seems like my childhood was taken faster than I could even blink. And thus the word "dormant" enters into my life. I feel I am stuck in a "mellow" and "inactive" state in life. Until I get the feeling that I've "waken", I don't think this title will change for awhile...
Today was the first lab we had in Chem. class. Let's just say, I'm not used to the whole "working in the lab" thing. (I dislike safety goggles immensely.)
It was unimaginably windy at the bus stop today. My poor head was tossed and turned in every which way. It was quite the nauseating experience. (Come on Summer, wtf?)
Unfortunately, I didn't really run into anyone I knew to ride the CCC WestCat bus with, so it was quite...awkward.
Sitting around my area included: this old black man carrying KFC leftovers and chatting with the bus driver about "lets go drink wine together sometimes", an Asian guy that reminded me of Richie from "La Bamba" (trust me, they look nothing alike. But his pants exposing too much sock reminded me of the way men used to dress back in the 50's.), another Asian guy that is just...weird, really weird, this white man who had a weird tendency to fiddle with his hands in snapping motions, and finally, another Asian boy that looked like he came from Hercules.
Needless to say, I'm glad I had at least my MP3 to listen to. If I didn't, who knows? Maybe I could've made conversation with one of them. Then again, I probably wouldn't have even dared.
Interesting Fact of the Day: I am not the best lab partner to have. I work quite slowly and I doubt a lot and think in "what if's".
The second day of Chemistry has come and gone. Long hours spent indoors. Spent some time at PS14, the Chemistry lab. Talked about rules and safety procedures. Hopefully, I will not get acid on me. Or inhale anything to deep. Or accidently burn myself or anyone. I'm scared of the "Safety Showers", that's put in use when you catch alight. But to use this shower, you must remove all your clothes. o_o So lets hope clumsy me. Don't get put under the... "safety showers" just in front of the door. And oh yeah, Adil is my lab. partner. Ok, I need to go back to chem homework. Peace. :)
PS: Priscilla Ahn is brilliant. Amazing voice and wonderful sounds.
The lyrics to "Dream"
I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me. I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.
I had a dream That I could fly from the highest swing. I had a dream.
Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be. The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.
I had a dream That I could fly from the highest tree. I had a dream.
Now I'm old and feeling grey. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave. I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.
[Since Ffrances is such a lovely and inspirtational blogger and how she once stated she liked reading short, simple blogs, I decided to keep it a bit poem-format-ish. With of course, my own touches here and there. ;)]
"THE THING ABOUT CHEMISTRY" Today was my first day of Chem. at CCC.
Adil's the only one I know in that class. Dr.Dang is my teach. Many older people in my class. I have homework every single day. I have a quiz/exam every week. I came across an error while registering a late request. I'm worried sick if I'll get in the class. I already paid $65 in books. I don't want to waste good money. Met Lauren, Jiaqi, Yin Yin, Chong, and Winston there. Ate the same free lunch as all the "College for Kids". Fed some seagulls BBQ chips... and watch them try to take it as I stared them down. Chem. is fine for now. I'm just worried about getting in the class. That's all.
"THE THING ABOUT ART PHASES" I had one this past weekend. Sent me on quite the adventure. Drew endlessly for hours. Grew attached to my art journal. Is noticing beauty in everything. Never loved colors more. Love the way a color-crusted brush, would meet the water when they touch. I love art phases. They are healers and problem solvers,and "I-just-don't-want-to-think-about-it-now-ers". They are the first class ticket, for those stuck at home. But please don't let Chemistry it away. Spare some time for me. So I don't lose this art phase.
"THE THING ABOUT SUMMER NOW"
Officially you will come on Sunday. But not much of a visit if you bring such chilly winds. No summer was ever remembered like that. Where's the scorching heat that makes us complain? I miss that kind of summer. Sure, the crickets may still chirp. Sure, the sky is bright blue. But what about that heat, that makes summer... summer?
Top 5 priorities 6 months ago: 1. Pass Concert Band. 2. Maintain a good balance of sanity (but failed.) 3. Filming. 4. Great America! 5. Donating 8 inches of my hair.
Top 5 priorities today: 1. Music Program Benefit Concert. 2. In-and-Out (Yum!) 3. Study. 4. Study! 5. STUDY?!
LAST
Person you got mad at? - I can't recall. I try not to get mad at anyone if I can.
Person that got mad at you? - I'm not sure if there is one. But whoever you are: sorry for what I did.
Thing you put in your mouth? -Straw.
Thing you said out loud? -Bless You.
Song you heard? - The Dream ft. Young Yeezy - I Love Your Girl
Time your heart was broken? - Never broken, but sometimes breaking.
Nickname you were given? - Gurrrrrrrrrrl. :)
Time you worked so hard you thought you were going to die? - Editing Andrea's video. (Windows Movie Maker >:B)
Time you fell in love? - When I saw John Corbett in "Raise your Voice" :3
Text you got? - I don't text silly.
Text you sent? - I don't test god***it!
Wish you made on a star? - That I will have a successful high school year and graduate. (I'm such a geek.)
WHO
Do you love? - YOU! :D
Do you hate? - Lets not. D:
Can you never live without? - Not "who", but I don't think us ladies could live without men. Even thought they're the most annoying bunch of people sometimes. >:3
Frustrates you the most? - Myself.
Would you take a bullet for? - Any innocent person that did nothing to deserve it.
Can make you laugh even if youre about to cry? - I would like to know myself.
WHAT
Did you do last night? - Senior Recital! :D
Will you do tonight? - Study...for finals. D:
Were you doing three months ago? - Struggling through school in a marathon of little sleep. x_x And I started track and field.
Is your ringtone? - "Country Road" by John Denver! (I love it! <3)>:-O
Would you never do, even for a billion dollars? - Eat poo-poo. Kill a anyone. Sit in a tub full of millions of tiny tiny spiders.
Was the last injury you got? - Really intense sunburn from Great America.
Are you wearing? - Marching band Tee + Pants.
Is wrong right now? - My room is a mess. (As usual.)
Should you be doing? - STUDYING. >:3
WHERE
Are you? - In my room at my house.
Is the person you like? - On earth somewhere.
Do you live? - STALKER! D:<
Do you wish you lived? - So many places to choose from! @_@
Is your place in the world? - Still looking. Currently homeless.
Do you feel most comfortable? - Bed: sleeping.
Will you never go again? - Down the road of bad memories.
WHY
Are you taking this survey? - Because I want to avoid studying for finals. :)
Is the world so corrupt? - Because it's inevitable.
Is the sky blue? - Because it just is.
HOW
Are you feeling right now? - Worried. Finals. Boo. D:
Long can you hold your breath? - [Does an experiment] 1 minute and 7 seconds. I'm purple now. o_o
Much time do you waste on facebook? - Not as much as I used to. In fact, barely.
Is your heart? - Beating quickly from holding my breath.
Far would you travel for the one you love? - Far. :)
Would you like to spend all of your time? - Amazingly.
SPELL YOUR NAME
Without any vowels? - (Does "y" count because it sometimes is a vowel?) : Dn
Backwards? - Anayd.
HAVE YOU EVER
[ x ]played Spin the Bottle? [ ]toilet Papered someone’s house [ ]played Poker with money [ ]been tickled so hard you couldn’t talk [ x ]liked someone but never told them [ x ]went camping [ ]had a crush on your brother’s friend [ x ]walked in the rain without an umbrella [ x ]told a joke that nobody thought was funny [ x ]been in a talent show [ ]worn somthing your mom didn’t appove of [ ]been to a nude beach [ ]drank jack daniels [ ]cursed in a church [ ]burnt yourself with a curling iron/straightner [ x ]wanted to be a police officer [ ]dumped someone [ x ]been hit on by someone too old [ x ]wanted to be a model [ x ]bought lottery tickets [ ]made out in a car [ x ]cried during a movie [ x ]wanted something you couldn’t have [ x ]seen someone shoplift [ x ]hung up on someone [ ]yelled at your pet [ ]gotten seasick [ ]played a prank on someone that had them really scared [ x ]been embarrassed by someone in your family [ x ]felt bad about eating meat [ x ]protested [ x ]been to an island [ ]been in love [ ]ate just because you were bored [ ]screamed in a library [ ]been dumped [ x ]wished a part of you was different [ ]asked a guy to dance [ ]been asked out by a really hot guy [ ]laughed so hard you cried [ x ]went up to a complete stranger and started talking [ x ]been sunburned [ ]kicked a guy in the nuts for being a pervert [ ]threw up in school [ x ]received an anonymous love letter [ x ]had to wear something you hated [ ]cursed in front of your parents [ ]watched a movie that made you miss your ex [ x ]been out of the country [ x ]been honked at when you were walking down the sidewalk [ ]went on a diet [ ]been cheated on [ x ]been attacked by seagulls [ x ]been searched in an airport [ x ]been on a plane [ ]been pantsed [ x ]thrown a shoe at someone [ x ] broke someone’s heart [ x ]sung in the shower [ x ]bought something way too expensive [ x ]done something really stupid that you still laugh about later [ x ]been walked in on when you were dressing [ ]been kicked out of the mall [ x ]been mean to someone then instantly wanted to take it back [ ]been given a detention [ ]fell off your roof [ ]pretended you were scared so you could cuddle up with someone [ ]had a deer jump in front of your car [ x ]threatened someone with a water gun
CAN YOU
[ ]Unwrap a starburst with your tounge [ x ]sing [ x ]open your eyes underwater [ x ]eat whatever you want and not have to worry [ x ]ice skate [ x ]sing in front of a crowd [ x ]whistle [ x ]be a bitch at times [ x ]do thirty pull ups [ x ]walk in really high heels [ x ]eat super spicy foods [ x ]skateboard [ x ]sleep with the lights on [ x ]mulititask [ ]touch your nose with your tounge [ x ]fall asleep easily in the car [ ]do the cotton eye joe [ x ]play ddr and not fall [ ]surf [ ]fit in your locker [ ]do a split [ x ]taste the difference between pepsi and coke
I'm pretty sure most of you know by now: it is Andrea Shintani's 15th birthday on 6/6! Thanks to all who contributed to my present for her. If only I could've put more. D: Here's the vid I'm talking about:
Ok, before I move on. Those of you wondering about pictures I've taken before and why they're not up on my flickr yet, I am so sorry. I'll have them up as soon as finals are over. I'm so overwhelmed with studying right now I don't have time. (Trixy, I'll have that vid of you and Rolando up as quick as I can!) Thanks for being patient guys!
Anyway, what's been happening in my life the past few days. Well, let me recap breifly:
-I won that trial I was talking about. But it still didn't feel...right. -Mr.Franklin never came back ): -Great America was so much fun, but I've developed a higher fear for roller coasters. (I can't stand dips but man oh man do I love loops and spins!) -I trapped a very tiny spider in a jar and called him Jumbo. I accidentally drowned him with the water I wanted to feed him with. Oops. -I had lunch/tea with Anna Oh since it was her birthday bash at Happy Sashimi. (I still think that place is a ripoff.) -I'm definitely going to miss the seniors tremendously. -I'm putting more room into my "yearbook" as we speak. -I think I'm doing speech for forensics. -Stupid weatherman. -I loved the Senior recital!<3 -FINALS! Eek, I must study!!!! D:
Sticking photos onto paper, Dyana S.
PS: Can't wait to see some of you at Ellerhorst tomorrow!
Name: Dyana Home: About Me: I am an odd person. I'll admit it because I can't really figure out who I am exactly. I think that's what life is partially about: figuring out who you really are, that, and happiness. I don't think many do find out who they really are in the end, but make a marvelous journey trying. I think that's beautiful. Frankly, I don't really want to find that one word or thing that would describe me perfectly. I think I'll just sit along with the ride and let everything just roll as it goes. I'm a very spontaneous person. See my profile...
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